tday went back to school for guzheng class.Thought I was late at first HOWEVER, when I reached, only five people were there. Made me think it was some kinda sectional practice-.-" I called damien & suping called yawen so that sanshengbu would have more people(: oh yes, there's till hanzhe. yeah. and they didn't pick up our calls but poof and they were here-.-" WOW.more and more people came till every was here! yayye(: practiced a lil more. sanshengbu is slack but we rock xD
After school went to raymond's place to help out. we made a huge mistake of not reading instructions properly and screwed up the needlework.ROFL.darn funny. And he helped me buy macs lunch and ended up drenched in the sudden downpour. sorry & thanks alot!
Yes, today Serene&Yeechin helped me me submit my booklist and serene missed her show to come and pass me my slip so that I can collect it tmr :D thanks alot girl(: ershengbu rocks too(:

MSNing with marble just now. I dont know what I was blabbering but it got me thinking.
It's nearing a year and a half since i've joined first camp. Though my faith has increased, my enthusiasm has took a plunge. I still remember a year ago when I was still a newbie, alvin asked me repeatedly why am I here. Instantly I gave model answers(well,at least to me it's a model answer.) to learn the dharma because I believe that this is a condusive environment as compared to other places. I made myself believe it's true. Pushed myself hard to make this true cus an arising sub-conscious mind keeps telling me that im deceiving him.
From this moment I was never the person I used to be. From one who doesn't even bother what camp it is cus I know marble is someone who won't cheat me so I just went to one who would by hook or by crook rush to SBMY cus I know attendance is taken. It's a leap between extremes, and a regret.wrong move.
Really glad that one day I lost my objective in being so perfect in the wrong way. Thank you NDP for making me realise this or Im not sure when I'll stop. Though about it over and over again, whether I should leave or stay. Started searching non-stop for my objective to stay, yeah, and I found it. Lots of pondering have told me what I really wanted: A place where I can call home, where joy & warmth won't cease. That's good foundation to build my faith on. I still believe that there's room for improvement on an individual basis but I need time.
It's another stage in life, hope the changes would be for the better(:
hmphs..After camp it's another reshufflement..
from ananda to mogallana to moggallana; for the better then downhill.
-we'll rise again:) thanks for all you've given me.-