hmphs.
Went to work with Izzat yesterday at some very Ulu area of Khatib.Eww.AND IMAGINE JIAYAO AND TERRY CLEARING STOCK.LIKE WOW. haha.Went for supper with mum and dad around the area since they came to pick me up.Hey and I've just realised that one month of my holiday has passed AND dad got me to pack to room in these few days or I'll not go work or sth.Which means it'll probbably be tmr cus it's late now(:

Went for breakfast with mummy at macs before going to school(: Met Adelaine and Ranie at Marsiling and headed to school AND Adelaine bought 'SiewKiang' for the Mercy Relief fund raising x) Cultural Potopourri 7 takes place today(: [haha.i forgot how to write seven in roman numbers] We were the only performing arts group who wore sch u but then again, it doesn't mean that it's a bad thing cus some other CCA group members were either wearing oversized/undersized/wrong gender costumes to fit into the picture.LOL.AND if we needed say school skirt or whatever it's easy to borrow(: ANYWAY thanks to harp girls for lending me sch skirt cus some black oil got onto my school skirt when I was moving guzhengs =/ OhYes, some seniors came back to support us and yinlaoshi came too! thanks for your encouragements and gifts(:

It feels dumb when somehow things just come crashing in and you've got just too lil time to do what you're supposed to.Yeah.Maybe I'm just not up to the standard to take all these commitments.thanks to all those who helped even when I screwed up everything.Despite feeling like crying, it ain't any use to salvage whatever is in front of me.And yeah.I'll all be over soon

Yeah.im gonna work AGAIN tmr. Not working night cus I've yet to pack my stuff.BTW, I won't be home from 4th-10th Dec so should there be anything, call/msg me on my HP(: [P.S: don't worry, im not overseas so you won't be paying extra charges.HAHA]
In the year which had just passed, thanks to all those around me that have brought fun,joy,peace&laughter to my life(: thanks man.[the list below is gonna be LONG.]

Lotsa thanks to;
Clara; hey girl.the person I wanna thank the most apart from my mummy and my daddy is you(: You must be very honoured(: Thanks for always staying by me throught ups & downs, for mugging with me before EOY, for having blogshop tgtr, for gossiping, for influencing me to use a million and one short forms, for camwhoring, shopping, poning lessons and yes, letting me be taller x)
YiYan; my kayaking partner(: thanks for asking me to go kayaking though we didn't know what it is and thought it was actually a canoe, but it's still very fun la(: HEY.I must say I really don't know what's in your brain but it's bound to be something different from all ours cus you are so much cleverer & hardworking than us! HAHA. All the best in NJC(:
Amanda; HELLO(: Although I never got to know you really well, but I think you're nice(: Thanks for spending 45mins to roast me a nice chickenwing at the BBQ, for keeping me company, for feeding me ben&jerry's icecream, for doing some really lame stuff like laughing at your own jokes, for listening to me talk about SBMY[LOL!] and somemore la(: Im being plain lazy but you're nice(:
Cynthia; The one&only other councillor from twotwelve OHSIX. for accompanying me through probation, for tolerating sotongball's PMS moments, for lending me your jacket in chalet, and for being a friend(:
Yining&Abigail;
Sabrina&Chrysan;
Madeline; What's a LANSO? HAHAHA.okay, I shan't disturb you here x) mm.thanks for coming to SBMY and for asking me to movies cus I'll not go on my own, for going home tgtr, for asking dumb questions that make me think real hard, for generating lame ideas for the camp, for booking&organising class chalet, for cooking maggiemee..
MARBLE; THANK GIRL, for helping me print stuff, for being me to SBMY, for ..
VictorTan; HEY. my june camp GL partner(: Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense, for telling me that all my cheers won't work out [but in the end some did], for saving the day when I almost gave up, for teaching me alot though sometimes I don't know what you're saying x) And Yes, being part of moggallana(:
Marc; THANKS for teaching me how to play pool, for teaching me how to rollarblade, for playing me throughout vesak @ orchard and at prequel camp, for everything, thank you(:
KLSSC people; HELLO(: For being so BHB, for making us feel so welcome, for encouraging and guiding us when we go wrong, for going sightseeing on your own while we practise, for making our stay so fun, THANKYOU(:
Adeline; HELLO(: for being so outgoing&outspoken you made me your friend, thanks(: YAYYE(: we'll go for two-star together.SET LIAO(:
Kevin(NextConcept); Mr Manager, CHEERS TO YOU:) and to me cus the end of the holiday would mark the end of my vacation job too. Thanks for the opportunities,trust&encouragement you gave us and made everything FUNandFLEXIBLE(:
ZiHui; for teaching me how to calculate money and being a really nice partner(: THANKS.
Terry; Whatever lorh.Bluff me.Bully me.Laugh at me.Still mislead me to the mortuary.Somemore still always get ALOT more sales than me. And still accused me multiple times that Im copying him, missing him, whatever that's gotta do with him.Now you guys know what kind guy he is x) HAHA. kidding.okay, you're still a LIL nice though you're VERY evil x)
Izzat; HEY.YOU ARE AFRAID OF DOGS TO OKAY? don't say me. HAHAHA. anyway, 12 x 7 = 84. (:
It was raining like mad yesterday so we were stuck in Victoria Concert Hall as guzhengs can't get caught in the rain.LOL.Sat there for quite some time before the rain turned into a drizzle and we shethered the guzhengs to the lorry.LOL.funnaye.
Went to work at Yishun, near ChongPang area.The good part is cus it's nearer to my house(: But the bad part is the sales factor.Thankfully sangu supported me(:

Today went for guzheng in the morning and for ONCE adelaine was earlier than ranie and me.LOL! Did a bit of practise and I started to influence everyone to eat mashpotatoes and cheesedog x) that's lame but yeah.We had a break just to eat them(:
Im rushing for time now(: BYE!
Summary of the past few days;
thursday was grad nite for sec four seniors.
Some of us went to help out and Russell treated us to lunch and paid for our cab fare(: And got his mum to send me to the mrt station so I'll be in time to catch the train so thanks alot(: OhYes, Sorry for making ya stay up.LOL.[cus i forgot to call as I agreed to :P ]
Anyway, Im lazy to post the pics here but most looked glam(: Though plenty of stuff didn't go as planned, but I guess it was still okay(:
And yeah.YeeChin, Charmaine and I got our clothes stolen.hmm.It's definite that the guy is pervertic,desperate and dumb.Moreover all other valuables were intact.WOW.

friday;
went to work.finally.haha.
hmm.Paired up with terry for the entire day.sales ain't that good and we ended up lost.
Some dumb security guard told us to take this shortcut across SGH's BLOCK 9 which turned out to be a mortuary and we were still hanging around the loading and unloading bay.like WOW.
5A.I peng yous didn't come and I decided to leave early.HAHA.thankfully kevin is supportive(: A lil earlier makes alot of difference okay? HAHA.cus you dont have to mass demerge or whatever you call it.

saturday a.k.a today:
Planning and exceuting for open house was better than last year BUT there weren't as much people.Eh.Didn't really practise cus I was prettaye tired out so I only started chionging the two pieces for th short performance in the morning.It's over thankfully. WeiLong a.k.a ex-senior of NHGZ came back to help us and he became our temp dui4zhang3.cus he is pro-er.fortunately we were all wearing black tees so we could blend in(:
Went to bathe before going to SBMY. A lil late but met ZeYan and ZeKui as we walked in.No sharing just did song singing a.k.a camp prep work.hilarious typo errors in the lyrics but very entertaining and a good tet of memory to see if ya know what's the correct one.
Had dinner and went home.Actually ythere was still camp skit prep and various games team prep work but I didn't go.mm.mainly cus I didn't know why I should.Pondered for some time and decided to go home.At least I found a reason for going home; mum's glad im home(:
My dear comp, please don't die okay? cus some suddenly the entire screen went black and the comp auto restarted.LOL
-I just need another of me-

heck all those stuff in the past two days.I was being lazy hence didn't go to work and Im not going tmr too.Thankfully I've got a nice manager who doesn't mind(:
Went to MJR to meet the others to do some camp prep.Heard instructions wrongly and thought today is the familiarization of area.LOL.But anyway I can't got on day zero and wencai's nick said so too xD
yeah.Decided to help out for Grad Night tmr.The Pines Country Club..Sounds nice eh? But the theme is hiphop.wonder how many people out of the entire crowd's gonna follow that.HAHA. Nevertheless, I decided not to post my hilarious conversation HERE. Picked out some blouse which doesn't seem too away from the theme and that's what im gonna wear with jeans.HAHA. GOOD NIGHT.I wanna sleep. HAPPY GRAD NITE IN ADVANCE(:
too lil time, too much to do.

Wednesday, 15nov.
reached school late cus I overslept. half went for guzheng and another half at council meeting however I left school early for both to meet lawarence, madeline and mabel for campfire prep. See? I really need a replica of myself-.-"

Yeah. Met alyssa at clem mrt(: yayye. we didn't have to go alone(: moreover we were going to the same place(: okay. alyssa attempt to prank madeline using my fone and madeline didn't know who that is.WOW.Yeah. Anyway we still got to meet up and eat at burgerking.Lawrence came late and was drenched.LOL.& we talked and talked till we went for dinner at taka before going to SBM for games meeting.fun stuff this camp man, but veryvery brain-cells-costly.HAHA.

Thursday, 16Nov
I don't remember what I did in the morning and afternoon but anyway, dad wasn't working.
In the evening he sent me to farrerpark to work.Eh.. Holiday sales job experience. Pay is unstable and hours aren't really favourable but manager is prettaye nice. Most people are nice too. The thing I like most about the job is that it can fit into my schedule, in other words, no hard and fast schedule which is good for people who have weird timetables. HAHA. Anyway, Big thanks to JiaHui and YingZhu that I survived my first day:)

Friday, 17Nov
Met Clarissa in the morning and went to school to renew my blazer rental and get her one. Thankfully I went down cus MdmNorma was stock-taking. Or else I'll be getting phone calls from her already:) Phew.
SNGS investiture was quite interesting. Alot more interesting that nanhuahigh. But don't worry, we can improve(: HAHA. But their PMB has like 4times more people than us and only the sec fours go for investiture.LOL.funnaye system but they had quite cool deco and dance. Had a lil school tour and reception before we left.
Went to work again. THANK ZIHUI(: It was in some ulu place which I think is BuangKok.SOSO. darn tired.thanks daddy and mummy for coming to fetch me(: Eh..got this recommandation for another job but I don't think i'll be going for the interview cus I wanna sleep(:

Saturday, 18Nov
YAYYE. I decided not to work today(: Brought adeline(biaomei) to dragon kiln.Realised that there was another kiln beside the one we went previously and they were "toasting" the pottery works.COOL! but my camera is with clara.
Yeah.Then I went home to sleep cus I was being really tired. Not kidding. Overslept so daddy sent me to SBMY but there was a traffic jam-.-" So I was late. A venerable from England came to sing some hymns with us and talked to us.There was was camp briefing. Selina's not in out team anymore:( cus she's got school. So it's just me and bertina so JIAYOU:)
talked to people like victorteo and eugene. Maybe my job's not my kinda thing but as I promised my manager, I'll do it till the end of the holiday:) On the brighter side, im only doing it for this holiday.LOL.But it's still a good experience(: KS traing was funnaye. I diedcountless times with dumb reasons but I got pass ONCE okay-.-" HAHA
today went for guzheng late x) okay.there the reason:
I reached the mrt station 30secs late to miss the train which brings me to school slightly early. Amazingly the next train turned out to be 6mins instead of 3min-.-" Anyway, I met Adelaine coincidentally:) Yeah. And realised ranie was on the same train too:) But due to HP lagging, we thought ranie was one rain behind us and got off at yewtee blahblahblah and finally three of us met at cck. WOW. we were 20 mins late. Of course, yinlaoshi was already there. Did a couple of stuff and I've got a different qin again.

Went home to change and met weiming at amk.thanks for bringing me to the interview(:
And I got shortlisted(: yayye(: the manager is nice(: moreover the hours are flexible(:
yupps.then went to bishan library but all of sudden people started to ring my fone so being very considerate I stood outside the library talking for 20mins.LOL.funnaye. yeapps. It's another busy day again tmr(:
For once, I was earlier than yinlaoshi =D that's cus mum woke me up at some unearthly hour of six plus and I fell asleep and woke up again before eight. Prettaye okay on the playing part thought I've not really memorised. four songs for cultural potpourri and two are for next year's SYF. it's a great sneak peek people(: Anyway, I had a bad stomach this morning but thankfully it got better:) alot of people are unwell..do takkaire okay? xD

WE BROUGHT BLANGAH RISE PRI SCH STUDENTS TO SENTOSA(:
okay.we didn't bring the whole school but only seven classes.HAHA but hey.it's not easy to bring some really hyper primary school kids to do some kinda amazing race around sentosa okay.The good part is that you get to burn tons of calories and wont have to face bored faces and build up some stamina. COOL. kityeng and I were randomly attached to 8 pupils(: thank godness that they were prettaye obedient though playful. Say we were nice cus we brought they to subway in the middle of their amazing race journey.HAHA xD JIE YOU ROCK(: ohyes. some people were actualy darn stunned that I actually have a cousin in that school.WOW(:

Just received Kaiyi's call to inform about camp roles this time. Im GL again but for a change, it's with Bertina and Selina(: looking forward to working with them(: [I think I sounded bored on the phone.Sorry I was tired.]

this is random: I think Bishan library is really nice(:
yayye.
went bowling this morning and realised that I was a total gonna. totally can't make it. at this point of time there was this rather fierce coach there teaching people so I went up to enquire LOL. impulsive action.HAHA.
raining rather healivly so I got a lift by car and met up with madeline xiaohui and victan at vivo. lesser people than the last time i've been there but there's still a bit of crowd. yeah. had lunch and before leaving for SBMY. still raining. LOL.
We were rather late.50mins. sorry. two sharings by lawrence and wencai respectively. interesting(: Upcoming march retreat seems to be alot different for previous ones. aloka malaysia. sounds great but it would sure take some great determination and discipline to achieve that.hahas.jiayous everyone[who wants to go:)]
-things are different now but we've still got to move on.-

anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADELINE AND CUILING(:
im back from twotwelve chalet(:
big thank you to hotshots who organised it, and to all those who helped/came(:
left guzheng early and met up with the rest to realised some have backedout at the last minute. Either case we still went on with stuff(: The BBQ was great. alyssa made alot of carbon coated marshmallows which turned out to be rather popular and nice though unhealthy. alyssa:"nevermind la.once in a while only."
thankyou amanda for spending 45mins to help me BBQ my chickenwing x)chrysan parents brought food too(: thanks. sab mad and I were feeding people with grapes.LOL.funnaye.people took photos camwhore.bombed up sab and rachel's camera.I'll post them in some another post or you can refer to http://-daretorock.blogspot.com

Alot of time was slept sleeping, watching tv, playing taitee until most people didn't wanna play anymore.LOL.ohyes.edwin came(: thanks for coming.and thanks for teaching me how to play taitee.haha.thanks to all those who taught me.HAHA.

Despite the fun, I dont really like CostaSands chalet but that doesn't mean that twotwelve chalet ain't good(: The staff weren't nice cus all they know is to complain about you warn you this and that and were biased. It can be veryvery irritating when you can't talk can't play can't this and that, BUT the good part is that some ARE REALLY DUMB. haha.

Okay.this is some stuff we did:
-we talked alot and played even more taitee.
-cyn and I went out for walks and listened to timo and kevin.
-through the chalet cyn and rachel fell down.I dont know by but they just did.haha.
-some of us went to the poolside and ran into some unfriendly staff.
-10 of us went to macs for supper at 1plus cus I was hungry xP
-stupid jingwei successfully scared cynthia and me while we were walking to macs-.-"
-sabrina shivered all night and didn't ask for a blanket-.-"
-I slept on the floor but thankfully I wasn't cold like her cus I shared blanket with timotheus and cynthia lent me her jacket(: thanks.
-I avoided being stepped on by those who went to the toilet but in turn squashed up raymond. He didn't sleep.went out of the room with yining and cynthia and alvin. sorry :p
-we got bitten by some really hungry mosquitos.
-barry dumbly/blurly switched on the room lights when going to the toilet when we were all sleeping.amanda and I were sleeping under the lights-.-" she got so pissed that she switched off the toilet lights as she turned off the room lights.
-barry was lag.he came out like 30 sec after amanda switched off the lights to ask how switched off the lights.LOL.and the cycle repeated itself again-.-"
-woke up early and had a class photo.camwhore. look at the blur looks.
-played pool. Coool man. some guys swam.
-sab chrys and I went to wildwildwet.yeah.
-nine of us went cycling(: some skin pealed off my leg cus I went too close to the kerb of the road when the car came-.-"
-eight of us left early cus we were tired and wanted to go home to sleep.[P.S there was not enough place to sleep.HAHA.]

alethea was suggesting a day out at sentosa in december(: we'll plan(:
Im back from malaysia(:
Just spent the weekend with my parents, cuzzie and aunt at KL city[again].
went to a number of places but im too lazy to post it here. Till i get my pics from the digital cam, shall i post it up.HAHA.gng soon cus there's guzheng tmr.LOL.

yayye.class chalet is coming:)
tday went to cineleisure with madeline to watch the prestige.mm.It uses flashback technique which makes certain parts a lil confusing but it's still good(: It also has a good baseline/moral which is clearly put across(: If you wanna win, you don't have to make the other party lose. yeah. win-win situation(: Sometimes we have to forgive the other person and that's for the better of both(: that's mainly what the movie and monday's leadership management course says.
okay.im off to KL tmr.ciaos people.I'll be back on monday(:
tday went back to school for guzheng class.Thought I was late at first HOWEVER, when I reached, only five people were there. Made me think it was some kinda sectional practice-.-" I called damien & suping called yawen so that sanshengbu would have more people(: oh yes, there's till hanzhe. yeah. and they didn't pick up our calls but poof and they were here-.-" WOW.more and more people came till every was here! yayye(: practiced a lil more. sanshengbu is slack but we rock xD
After school went to raymond's place to help out. we made a huge mistake of not reading instructions properly and screwed up the needlework.ROFL.darn funny. And he helped me buy macs lunch and ended up drenched in the sudden downpour. sorry & thanks alot!
Yes, today Serene&Yeechin helped me me submit my booklist and serene missed her show to come and pass me my slip so that I can collect it tmr :D thanks alot girl(: ershengbu rocks too(:

MSNing with marble just now. I dont know what I was blabbering but it got me thinking.
It's nearing a year and a half since i've joined first camp. Though my faith has increased, my enthusiasm has took a plunge. I still remember a year ago when I was still a newbie, alvin asked me repeatedly why am I here. Instantly I gave model answers(well,at least to me it's a model answer.) to learn the dharma because I believe that this is a condusive environment as compared to other places. I made myself believe it's true. Pushed myself hard to make this true cus an arising sub-conscious mind keeps telling me that im deceiving him.
From this moment I was never the person I used to be. From one who doesn't even bother what camp it is cus I know marble is someone who won't cheat me so I just went to one who would by hook or by crook rush to SBMY cus I know attendance is taken. It's a leap between extremes, and a regret.wrong move.
Really glad that one day I lost my objective in being so perfect in the wrong way. Thank you NDP for making me realise this or Im not sure when I'll stop. Though about it over and over again, whether I should leave or stay. Started searching non-stop for my objective to stay, yeah, and I found it. Lots of pondering have told me what I really wanted: A place where I can call home, where joy & warmth won't cease. That's good foundation to build my faith on. I still believe that there's room for improvement on an individual basis but I need time.
It's another stage in life, hope the changes would be for the better(:
hmphs..After camp it's another reshufflement..
from ananda to mogallana to moggallana; for the better then downhill.
-we'll rise again:) thanks for all you've given me.-