i think my blogging is getting more infrequent now.Do allow me to explain.
Life is more demanding nowadays. Loads of unfinished homework piling up on my table, Loads of unfolded lotus paper in my bag, Loads of expectations to live up to; NEVERTHELESS, there is still a force driving me.. LOADS of concern from the people arnd me :) thanks a million. I really appreciate it.

I understand mum and dad are worried about my studies; whether im able to cope with the syllabus. However that means more work for me to be done. if i cant even finish my school work how am I gonna do extras? i know im so-called "wasting time" on blogging and stuff, but seriously, i dont wanna go insane, i dont wanna be deprived of childhood.hahs.thanks clara&kaiying.thanks alot for helping me in my studies.

The lotus folding.I really hope that mogallana can meet our target, be it the first or last, i sincerely hope we are able to meet it on time, which is this saturday,22 April. It is not so much for the reward of i dont remember what, but more for the passion&satisfaction. Why passion? it came from the sariputta blog(coburn's post) which got me thinking. it made sense.If u dont like something, u would be doing it for the sake of doing.there would be no meaning in it.What's the point of folding 1million but no metta is spreaded? Why satisfaction? firstly, when u finish making ONE successful one, u will be very happy.im serious.go and try. How many time have u tore them? if u have this one, even if it is only one, which is perfect and nice, dont u feel happy? Secondly,it is our task to do it. Since we have been entrusted to do it, we should do it. I would be VERY happy if we can hand 5k of lotus in by this sat. Even if all the other houses hand in before us and we are the last, at least we are on time.I really hope it is possible.I know everyone is busy, but just try.Set aside just 1/2 hour or even 15mins, just sit there and do the lotus sincerely.u'll feel good. HUGE HUGE HUGE thanks to the twotwelvers would have been helping us fold.I know some are not buddhist but are willing to help.thanks.i really appreciate it :) May you always be well and happy.

to captain of ananda, alvin;
Hey there :) dont know if u would see this, but if u have fate with this msg then may u see it :)
i know u are experiencing many problems in life.Hope u are well and happy.Not sure if there is any way i might be able to help out, but if there is, i would be more than willing to do so. i may not be able to understand what u are going through, but i can be a listening ear for u to pour out your problems.If you ever need a listening ear, i would be there.Just call yupps? Even if im having lesson, it is fine.Can step out.hahs. Although im no longer in ananda, i still regard u as my capt derhs.. hahs.two captains..captain mogallana[zhenfeng] and captain ananda[alvin] :)